Dear God,

Right now, it feels like everything is falling apart. Every dream of mine feels shattered. Every hope feels like a hopeless case. Every move feels like a step in the wrong direction. My heart is broken, my mind is restless and my body feels weighed down with the heaviness of it all. And yet, here I am, leaning on you again, believing against all odds that this is all heading in the right direction because deep down I know you are the only one who can make me whole again.

I don’t always understand your lessons or why they have to be so harsh. I don’t always understand the people you bring into my life and why they can’t really stick around when I need them most. I don’t always understand your timing, because sometimes it can feel like the worst time for certain things to fall apart. But somehow, I feel like you still have my back. That you always save me, even when it feels like I am drowning, and you always take care of me, even when it feels like I am all alone. 

I’m not afraid because I have faith in you. You always give me the resilience I need when it feels like I’ve lost the will to fight for myself. You always give me the patience I need to wait for my turn. You always give me the wisdom I need to understand the pain behind losing someone I loved. You always give me the light I need to rise above any darkness in my life. You always heal me when I am broken and you always remind me that I am never truly alone. That everything always leads me back to you. 

You are the only constant in my life, and even in the hardest seasons, you remain steady. I can feel your presence more than anything. And because of that, I know I will always be okay, not because I’m strong enough, but because you always hold me together.