God,

My heart is full of conflicting emotions. On one hand I feel a deep sense of gratitude for the beauty I was capable of feeling in this new experience. But on the other hand, I feel like I am holding so much confusion and longing within my soul. God, you have placed a human being in my life who feels like they were made for me, who feels so right, and yet the timing seems so wrong. My heart wrestles with the uncertainty of what comes next, and I am finding it difficult to reason with why our paths have crossed during this season of my life if the bond between us cannot endure.

I know that your timing is never wrong, God. I know that, in ways I cannot see, in ways I couldn’t possibly understand yet, you are working on what is most fated for me, and most worthy of my heart.

On the days my trust wavers, help me to find faith in the fact that nothing happens outside of your divine plan. If this beautiful soul is meant to be in my life, I know you will carve a way, I know you will lay down that path. But if they are not my true happiness, I have to trust that you are protecting me from what isn’t meant for me, God. I have to trust your vision.

Please, give me the wisdom to discern your intention, Lord. Give me the patience to wait on your timing. Give me the strength to accept what is beyond my control. I surrender my heart’s desires to you. I place down my longing, my questions, and my fears at your feet, God. Teach me to love without clinging. Teach me to cherish without grasping. Teach me to hope without demanding more from you. Let me seek you first, above all things, so that I do not place my joy in the hands of another. Let me remember that the only eternal security worth chasing is found in your love, in your light.

If this is the right person, but the season is not right yet, help me to trust that you are still working behind the scenes, God. Prepare our hearts for the day we will reconnect, and align our lives according to your purpose. At the end of the day, if our journey together is not meant to continue, if we both must let go, grant me acceptance, and give me the strength to walk away with grace, knowing that you never take without the intention of giving something even greater.

Father, I need you to quiet the anxious thoughts in my soul that are whispering “What if?” right now, and I ask that you replace them with a rooted faith — with a deeper surrender. Remind me that what is truly meant for me will never pass me by. Remind me that the only things that fail to stay in my life are the things that were never meant to in the first place. I am choosing to release, and to believe in your perfect plan, God. I am choosing to believe that no matter what happens — you are leading me towards something beautiful.

Until then, I will wait with an open heart, trusting that your timing is never late, and that your love for me never fails.

Amen