God,

I feel this quiet pull towards something bigger in my life right now. This gentle voice in my spirit, pushing me towards something unknown, something I haven’t discovered yet. It tugs at my heart when I try to ignore it, it lingers in my soul even when I push it away or try to talk it down. And now that I think about it, I wonder if it’s you calling me to step out of my comfort zone, calling me to trust, calling me to begin a new journey. 

But if I’m being honest, God — I’m terrified. I’m scared of failing. I’m scared of what people will think. I’m scared that maybe I’m not the right person for this after all. What if I don’t have what it takes? What if I make the effort and everything falls apart? What if I misheard you, and I’m chasing something that was never meant for me? My mind is full of doubts, and excuses. I can’t help but think up all of these reasons to stay exactly where I am. And yet — the call hasn’t weakened. The dream still lingers. And deep down, I know you wouldn’t place this desire in my heart just to abandon me halfway through it. I know there is a reason for all of this.

So, God, I need your courage. Not the kind that waits until all the fear is gone, but the kind that moves forward despite the fear itself. The kind that trusts that you don’t call the most qualified — you qualify the ones you call. The kind that believes that you wouldn’t have led me to this moment if you weren’t already preparing the way.

I know you see my hesitations, God. You know how many times I’ve wrestled with this, how many times I’ve let fear talk me out of trying. But today, I am asking for the strength to take the first step. Even if it’s small. Even if it’s uncertain. Even if I don’t yet see how it will all come together. Because I don’t want to live a life ruled by hesitation. I don’t want to get to the end of my days and wonder what could have been if only I had trusted you more.

Help me to stop overthinking every possible outcome and just begin, God. Help me to focus less on my own limitations and more on your power working through me. Help me to stop waiting for the perfect moment, the perfect plan, the perfect version of myself — because I know you are not asking for my perfection. You’re asking for my courage.

God, if this is where you are leading me, I don’t want to miss it. If this is a path you have prepared for me, I want to walk in it. Even if my hands shake. Even if I’m scared. Even if I don’t feel ready.

So here I am. With all my uncertainty, with all my questions, with all my flaws — saying yes.

Go before me, God. Walk beside me. And when I feel like turning back, gently remind me why I started in the first place, gentle remind me why I am here.

Amen.