My heart feels like it’s in pieces, and I don’t know how to put it back together. I know you see me struggling and that you are here with me. I know you hear my prayers, and that you crack light into my heart. I know you are asking me to be stronger while I deal with this ache, but right now, everything just hurts.

I wanted so badly for this connection to work out. I thought they saw me the way I saw them. I let myself hope, I let myself dream and build a vision for a future that was blanketed in their heart, but now I’m standing here, watching them build a life with someone else. Now I’m standing here, watching my favourite human being turn into a stranger.

The what-ifs are keeping me up at night, God. What if I wasn’t enough? What if I am someone who is easily left behind, easily let go. What if the love I gave was always too much?

I know you don’t want me to think that way. I know love isn’t about measuring up or competing for someone’s heart. But, God, it’s hard not to feel like I lost. Like I wasn’t chosen. Like I wasn’t worth staying for.

So here I am, laying all of it at your feet — the disappointment, the unanswered questions, the heaviness of feeling overlooked. I don’t want to carry this weight anymore, God. I don’t want to replay every moment, wondering what I could have done differently. I don’t want to keep searching for answers in places that only leave me more confused, or more broken. I don’t want to stay up at night dissecting words, analyzing silences, convincing myself that if I just understood why, it would hurt less. I just want to be free.

Help me let go, God. Not just of them, but of the idea that they were my only path to happiness. Remind me that what is meant for me will not pass me by. That you never withhold the right things. That if they weren’t the person you made for me, then they are not deserving of my light. Especially if it means settling for something less than what you have planned.

I won’t lie, God — right now, I am finding it difficult to have faith in what’s ahead. I don’t see how this heartbreak will ever feel like a blessing, but I trust you. I trust that one day, I’ll look back and see your hand in all of this. I trust that you are leading me toward something better, even if I don’t understand it yet.

So in the waiting, in the healing, be close to me, God. Fill the empty spaces in my life with your love. Hold my heart in the way no human ever could. And when I’m ready, when my heart has been restored, lead me to the love you’ve written for me — the one that stays.

Amen.