by someone going through it, too.
Some days, you feel like you’re doing fine, like your life is finally going in the right direction. You’re strong, grounded, even content and happy with how everything is unfolding. But then, for reasons you can’t explain, something inside you starts to feel off. Your energy begins to change, you snap at someone you love. You distance yourself from all social activities. You stop making plans because you don’t feel excited about doing anything anymore. And it suddenly hits you that this is more than just a bad day. You’re battling something within yourself but you can’t figure out what it is yet.
The truth is, inner conflict is subtle and hard to pin down because it’s not something tangible. At first, you think it’s just you not being motivated enough or not having more willpower but then you realize it’s a lot deeper than that and it stems from the friction between who you are now and who you’re trying to become. It’s the tension between comfort and growth. It’s when the part of you that wants healing meets the part of you that’s scared to change. It’s the battle between old wounds and new hope. It’s the war between wanting to move on from your past and the fear of repeating the same mistakes in the future.
When you realize this war is happening, the first step isn’t to fix it, it’s to face it. Ask yourself what’s actually going on beneath the surface. What are you really scared of? What are you running from? What part of you is resisting change? Because when you answer these questions honestly, that’s when clarity starts kicking in, even when the answers aren’t pretty. That kind of honesty, even in small doses, can shift something inside.
Because from what I’ve learned, war is always followed by peace. That internal war, as unsettling and draining as it is, is actually the path to your healing. This conflict inside you isn’t a sign of failure. It’s a sign that you’re awake. That you want more for yourself. That you still don’t know how to stay stuck in a place that doesn’t serve you. That something in you still believes in a better life and a brighter future.
Because this war doesn’t last forever, and it doesn’t make you weak. You’re not failing. You’re just in the middle of a real transformation. Instead of running from it, face it, honor it, let it inspire you because even on the days you feel stuck, you’re still moving forward and even the battles you’re losing are teaching you how to win the war.
